must've been a beautiful day dream, you didn't come home til three... must've been a beautiful joyride, you didn't wanna think of me...
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a big whatsup to all of you that read this, and sorry for the lack of updates  . just been kind of busy, wrapping up senior year, working, wasting time at track practice and just everything else that pulls me in a million different directions every day.
funny, i didn't mention my own head. that's been overly distracting lately. (get your head out of the gutter, i mean i've been thinking alot lol) i dunno what caused it...ok i do. a boy caused it. the boy...the one boy that always causes it.
i really thought i was over it all. i mean...i need to be. how healthy is it to love a straight boy? he can never feel this for me, and yet when i'm around him, ALL i want is to feel him around me. it's so much more than a crush, it's lasted longer than any crush, and it made it through one of the toughest parts of both our lives. when he moved, i was sure it would kiill me. but here we are still friends, still incredibly close, and yet i still love him, and he still doesn't know.
he probably won't ever know. i could never risk making things awkward between us. i would never cross the line.
but i want you, with all of me. how many people can honestly say that?
what do you take to make it all go away, and what do you take to make it all ok? | 